Friday, December 23, 2011


How I love this song very much, I used to hear it when we were just lovers....

I'll tell you simply I'm fallin' for you;
I've never felt this way before.
I don't need flowers and I don't mind tears;
I just need you through the years.

And I am your lover and you are my friend;
We've got laughter to share.
I'll always want you to want me;
I'll always want you to care.

We can't be one, but two is fine with me;
You've got your time and I've got mine.
I don't want you under my hand;
I just need you to understand.

I'll tell you simply I'm fallin' for you;
I've never felt this way before.
I don't need flowers and I don't mind tears;
I just need you

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Sunday, December 18, 2011

The Final Decision...

This was written on the the day of my operation, December 15, 2011 a month before my 44th birthday...

In a few minutes, I will face a new chapter in my life. I'm here in my solitary confinement. As if I am waiting for my verdict to come. Just a while ago, I recalled some of the things I went through in the past. I thought about how I had been to the people I loved?. Did I treat them well? Had I been unkind to them. Did I inspire or hurt them. When someone is facing a danger in his life, he recalls things, good and bad. Truly, someone like me who will go into the depths of life, would be thinking of so many things. So much worries, wanderings, uneasiness and etc. will naturally pass one's mind.

It was early this year, in the month of February when I found out that I have to undergo hysterectomy. The doctor told me to have my uterus removed because of my myoma. She said it as if it's a normal thing. I had no any idea about hysterectomy. All I knew then,was my uterus should be removed. Okay, if that's so then I should undergo the procedure. Later, I found in my senses what are those things. What are the medical professionals telling me?Then I went on searching & searching. My friends in the office had been asking me why am I delaying it?

The truth of the matter, I was not ready. I did not want my loved ones know anything about it. I just don't want to explain. Maybe, I was just worried. It annoyed me everytime somebody would ask about it. I just don't want to talk about it. All I wanted was to forget everything as if I never heard of it.

The time has come, only thirty minutes left. I took my shower as if it was my last bath. I put a lot of shampoo & conditioner for I knew I wouldn't be washing my hair for days after the operation. Last night I went through a lot of medical test, blood test, X-ray, ECG etc. The resident doctors gave me information as to how the operation would go blah blah blah....But before I went to sleep, a young man (tall & handsome) who works at the operating room came up to my room and gave me instructions. It was a beautiful short lived talk, full of insights, the young man was so candid and kind to tell stories not only about the procedure but his life as well. I admired that young man. I pray that God will bless him because he has a  good heart. I could tell it the way he talked to me.

When I was about to be delivered to the operating room. I prayed to God that before everything happens, I had one wish, to see my 3 lovely children for I wouldn't know if we will see each other again. I was lying down on the stretcher leaving my room when I heard two soft voices calling mama, I cried hard when I saw them and I thanked God he granted my wish. God is really amazing.

Now, I am about to face the final decision as if I must answer the final question in a quiz show. I must do it right. I must be really prepared. Then I prayed. Lord, It's all up to you. You will not fail me again and will never fail me. Whatever happens you allowed it. Then tears rolled down on my cheeks. And there was an intense silence. I closed my eyes and I saw my mother. She was saying something but I can't hardly hear it. I know she was just comforting me because there was a sweet smile on her face. And it was my final decision.

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Time is near....

In a few days, my womb, where my children lived for 9 months each, will be demolished. I feel like my body is a private land which is invaded by informal settlers. And it's time that I have to get rid of them. What a paradox, my uterus as a vast area and myoma, the informal settlers. Now I understand why our government is very strict in the implementation of demolition. My OB Gynecologist is the government who wants to get rid of those informal settlers in my womb. She will help me clean up all the mess that was created by the squatters who comfortably stayed in the perfect place where God put my little babies. If they won't be removed my health is at risk. I want to enjoy life. I am still young at 43. I have a lot of dreams to act upon. If this procedure will let me taste all the goodness in life then, so be it.

I never felt scared or frightened, yes, truly...not once that I felt fear of being operated. I don't know why?Perhaps, the moment I learned  that I have to undergo  hysterectomy, I knew God was with me. I felt his presence and He whispered to me that "don't be afraid, my child....I ll be with you always....then I was assured that everything will be fine. I prayed for the right person, the place and hospital, the procedure and everything that comes with it. I asked God that He takes care of me as I undergo this battle of mine. I thank the Lord because in these times of uncertainties, I know He increases my faith. I do submit everything to God, whatever happens it's all with my Lord.

I read so much about hysterectomy and I had mixed emotions, sometimes I feel good about it and other times I feel disappointed. So much things I have studied about hysterectomy. But none of them had given me enough, I trust my doctor and all her companions. That way I would feel assured.

I am blessed to work in a company that gives a complete package of medical benefits I am so grateful that I would not be spending for my hospital bills, if there's any it would only be minimal.

I know I would be learning things after hysterectomy. I would want to  embrace all the things that will come along the  way, whether it's good or not. It would be a new life. A good life. Even though a lot of not so good-to-hear notes about having hysterectomy, I promise myself to think positive. Go on with my life, and  be a better person that I can be.

All praises to God!

Friday, October 21, 2011


This is the scene where I really cried hard. I love this show on ABS CBN. It's actually the second soap opera which I followed the story. First is the baker King a korean Novela aired in another network, GMA Channel 7. Both shows depict a story of a mother to her son. This is very close to my heart. I may have not experienced a son being mentally challenged or being parted from my child, but the love of a mother to her son is one of the greatest gift God has given to mankind. All thumbs up for Gerald Anderson who gives justice to his role as mentally challenged. He forgets that he is Gerald Anderson but portrays a powerful character in Budoy. One more thing, I am so impressed with Janice de Belen. She is the real drama queen and I kike her so much back in her Florde Luna days. I hope more Filipinos will watch the drama especially those families who have a child who is mentally challenged. I love the show very much. I would not want to miss a single episode.

Saturday, September 10, 2011

14th Cinema Europa @ the Shang Cinemaplex

I have been watching free international movies at the Shangri-la Movie world since 2007. Since then, I don;t want to miss any chance of enjoying beautiful foreign movies. I am so happy that Shangri-la has to offer something like this. It's really a wonderful experience. In fact, my 2 lovely daughters are going now with me. A lovely lady from my office who happens to be a good friend of mine is a good recruit. I hope that I will encourage more friends to enjoy what I have been enjoying.

Here are some excerpts from the movies:

The German comedy drama film “Goethe! (Young Goethe in Love)" formally opens Cine Europa 14 with an invitational screening on Sept. 8 at the Shang Cineplex Cinema 2.

Directed by Philipp Stolz and starring Alexander Fehling, Miriam Stein, and Moritz Bleibtreu, Goethe! focuses on the German poet's youthful love affair with the fiercely independent Lotte Buff. The relationship deeply affected young Johann’s life and greatly influenced his masterpiece, “The Sorrows of Young Werther."

All other films will be screened for free on a first-come, first served basis at 12 noon, 3:00 p.m., 6:00 p.m. and 9:00 p.m. during the ten-day festival.

The ever deepening global economic woes are tackled in two of the films. Austria’s “Little Robbers" shows attempts by two very young children to rob a bank which threw their family out of their brand new flat after their father was laid off from work.
Belgium’s “Long Weekend" is a story of how two former workers plot to kidnap their manager to exact damages for all the company employees who lost their jobs when he closed shop, but the manager’s mistress complicates the transaction.

Bulgaria’s “Letter to America" takes viewers to busy Manhattan and the isolated Bulgarian mountains as the main protagonist Ivan, denied a US visa, searches for the mythical cure to save the life of his best friend who is lying in coma in a New York hospital.

Czech Republic’s “Grapes" flaunts the fabled Moravian vineyard as the background for the story of friendship between two men. One of them inherited his grandfather’s vineyard but knows very little about wine-making, while the other is a small-time crook with strong womanizing tendencies.

Denmark’s “The Escape" tells the story of Danish journalist Rikke Lyngvig, who was taken hostage in Afghanistan by a terrorist group but was freed after one of her captors, Nazir, took pity on her. Her escape propelled the journalist to stardom.

In Finland’s “Princess," a cabaret dancer was diagnosed as manic depressive with symptoms of schizophrenia. She was placed in a facility where she started her reign as a “princess". The dancer, while holding court in the hospital, inadvertently helps other patients and brings joy and healing.

France’s “An Ordinary Execution" portrays the relationship between the urologist who treats the dictator Stalin, his devious patient, and his wife.

“Little Greek Godfather" from Greece depicts the angst of an 11-year-old Greek who was raised in California but must return to Crete to act as a godfather to the child of a local politician and to prove to his father that he is a worthy heir.

Italy’s “The Lark Farm" describes the bloody political realities in Armenia as brothers Aram, who lives in Turkey, and Assadour, based in Venice, agree to hold a reunion in their hometown. Political violence and massacres hamper frantic preparations for the brother, who have not seen each other for a long time.

Based on true stories, The Netherlands’ “The Silent Army" recounts the plight of child soldiers. The story revolves around the fictional 11-year-old Abu who was kidnapped by rebels and forced to fight in gun battles, but is eventually rescued by the friend of his dead father.

Romania’s “Exchange" relates a factory worker’s bid to migrate to Australia after he lost his job. After selling all his properties, Emil converts his local money to dollars with the assistance of a dealer who cons him.

Slovakia’s “Mosquito Tango" looks at human emotions that are often taken for granted. The psychological film, told through the eyes of two immigrants who wish to return to their country, embodies the passion and tension in everyday life.

Spain has two films this year. “Intacto" is a mystery narrative of four lives interlocked by fate and how they outdo each other in a game where only one survives. Meanwhile, “Mataharis" is a comedy tackling the professional lives of private detectives as they uncover the secrets of their clients, even as they themselves are clueless in confronting their own secrets.

In Sweden’s “Mammoth," the quiet lives of a New York couple are shaken after the husband goes on a business trip to Thailand.

Switzerland’s “How About Love" tells the dilemma of a Swiss surgeon who visits a colleague working as an administrator of a refugee camp near the Burmese border. Doctor Fritz is totally taken by his new experience, as his life and family in Switzerland become secondary.

In the United Kingdom’s “Never Let Me Go," three childhood friends who grew up in a boarding school grapple with their affection for one another as they prepare to move on to the next stage of their lives.

From Metro Manila, Cine Europa 14 moves to Cagayan de Oro’s Liceo de Cagayan University from Sept. 23 to Sept. 25 and then to Cebu’s Ayala Center Onstage from Sept. 30 to Oct. 2. - 

Enjoy the movies!:)

Monday, August 15, 2011

Rest of my LIfe

I feel so touched by this song...I can't hold my tears...He may be lucky coz he found the right girl, but for a woman offered by this song is much luckier....I think I  can't get enough of this song...I hope someday someone will sing this to me....Bruno Mars you're so amazing and I like you so much!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Think before you say something hurtful to someone else. It may look like they’re ok but they’re not, words are more powerful than you think.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Happy Birthday to my firstborn

I wrote this poem on April 29, 2006 at 11:06 p.m for Abigail on her 14th birthday but I cannot remember why I was not able to give it to her. But last night while I was looking for a file on my office computer I chanced upon a word document file name :"429". when I opened it I read this....


I feel the warmth of your embrace
Your breath put life on me
This is another phase of my life
A love that will keep my being.

I struggled to keep us together
Prayed harder to live to its fullest
A gift that will never be forgotten
It is you and I forevermore.

As time passes by, you have grown enough
Matured and intelligent
Blissfully gifted and
Showered with so many blessings.

You fought your thoughts
You defended your views
You stood by your prowess
Strengthened by your accolades.

Today, its another canvas to carry out
Perfecting the work of art and delight in it
Believing that one more miracle
Will come about.

Happy 19th birthday, anak! I pray to God that He'll strengthen you and be the best person you would wanted to be!

Sunday, February 13, 2011

a cute & strange love story


There was a little boy whose first love was a young girl in a picture which he found and picked from the street...
As time went by he got married,
But still kept it.
One day,his wife found it and asked,
"Where did you get this?"
The man said,
"I kept that since I was a child,
But why are you asking?"
The girl replied,
"I lost this picture when I was 7...":)